We all have desires that we hope to fulfill. Perhaps it is a particular end goal, like finishing a graduate degree, or maybe it’s one that continues to evolve as time goes on. Sometimes that dream gets modified as we grow and realize that the particular dream we had no longer suits us.
Over the last few months I have taken steps to work towards realizing my own dreams. There are many of them actually. Some of them are lumped together, and others stand alone.
Sometimes it takes courage and a leap of faith to take the next step. That is something I discovered. Sometimes it takes an external event that makes you realize you’re wasting time. Other times it might be that internal fear of failure that stops you from realizing your dreams. Don’t let it. Life is too short to keep putting your dreams on the back burner.
You only regret the things you didn’t do. You’ll live with the what-ifs and never know if you would have been a great success. Or if you found a way that didn’t work, because if you tried, there is no such thing as failure.
So, dream, yes by all means. Keep dreaming. But then take that dream and one step at a time, turn that dream into your reality. What will you see when you look back after you did?
Spring is here, relatively speaking. There is still snow melting, but the days are longer, and the sun is feeling warmer as it peeks through my windows. It’s a time for regeneration. Spring cleaning has already begun in my house, although I find it rather unfair to call it spring cleaning since I attempt a deep clean every season, and often get ahead of myself when I am waiting for spring to arrive.
Spring is that time of year where I feel like second chances are possible. Perhaps it is a time to rekindle a friendship that didn’t weather through the winter very well. Or it can be a time to reinvent my style at home, redecorate or rearrange the furniture. Maybe a time to reinvent myself just a little bit.
Spring brings me happiness. I love the green grasses that start peeking out. My first tulips that seem to be in a hurry to show their faces to the world. I love the Easter feel of renewal; the pastel colors and fresh beginnings. I love that the bikes can come out of storage and wake up from their sleepy six months of snow inhibiting activity. There are more people out walking their dogs, and you can see neighbors that have been hibernating for months just as we have.
In just a few short days, April will be here. With April brings a concentrated writing camp that I am looking forward to participating in. This is just another piece of my personal growth, and I am very much looking forward to it. It is one more way I plan to grow this year. I hope you will enjoy your spring as much as I intend to enjoy mine, and I hope you find ways to grow yourself.
I have been fortunate enough to allow my heart to open and find people who seem to resonate at the same frequency as I do. It’s interesting how when life seems to be working against you, that truly, the Universe is aligning things for you.
Less than a year ago, I was competing for a position that I was certain I wanted. I worked endless hours, focused so intently on what I was doing to make that job happen. Even those I knew thought I was the best candidate for the position, yet it didn’t happen. I decided for extra insurance, I would apply for another position that came available at a different institution. Just in case. It was a similar job, but I still felt that this was maybe not as good as the original one I was vying for.
I succeeded in landing the second job. I can see now, in retrospect, how this was always the better choice for me. This is where I am happy. I feel my work is meaningful. I have the ability to celebrate accomplishments in a way the other institution didn’t accommodate for. I have met some incredibly amazing people that I would never have met before. These people have become a part of my tribe. I feel that I have been given permission, in a way, from the universe to be myself. To allow the true me to shine through. I hid behind the persona that I thought I needed to have. But in the end, it did nothing for me. I kept searching for the thing that was supposed to make me happy, yet I could never seem to find it. It wasn’t until I allowed myself to shed that protective layer and truly allow my own inner self to bare its soul that I found happiness, and others that share similarities with me.
So, thank you, Universe. I have never felt happier in my life.
Happy new year to all. It has been one year since I began my intention to write a blog entry once a week. I have managed to successfully complete my personal challenge. I am pleased with myself for having met this challenge, but also, as I read through my entries, I recall things that happened throughout the year and the reasons why I wrote the entries that I did. Some were happy, some were sad, and some were reflective. All of them are helping me to grow as a person.
I will continue on with my journey, and maintain my once a week blog entries. Thank you to those who have decided to follow me. This project was done in private, mostly away from my personal life. I believe only two people I know and love are even aware of my blog. For me, this means that I can write what I choose without fear of reprisal in my personal and day to day life. For if I decide to write my personal opinion on something that perhaps is not the expected opinion from my colleagues, friends, or family, this now creates tension where tension does not belong. This goes against what many may believe should be, but I prefer my online presence to be more about my thoughts and feelings, as personal or as raw as they may be at the time I put them to words. I prefer to not need to defend myself as when I am face to face with others, these things may not be at the surface nor applicable to the personal situation I deal with.
We have heard that online, people tend to be bullies moreso than in real life simply because things that are said in text are easier to say than those words being said directly to someone’s face. I believe this to be true. I also believe the other side of the coin. I believe that it is easier to type in one’s feelings and emotions, to be as honest with oneself in text than it is to say these things aloud. It does not mean that these raw feelings are hurtful to others, but perhaps to oneself. Perhaps it is easier to be vulnerable if staring at a screen instead of the eyes of the one who has hurt you.
Either way, thank you for sharing my journey this year. I wish you all a year of love and success in all that you do. I wish you joy instead of pain, love in place of hate, confidence not fear. I wish you the best of you.
I have spent this past week in an intensive course with strangers from many different backgrounds and disciplines. I have connected with a number of individuals that I likely would not have met if it were not for this course.
I cannot tell you how incredibly grateful I am for this opportunity.
I walked in completely unsure as to what to expect. I had an open mind, but still wondered what would they tell me that I didn’t already know. Turns out, there was quite a bit, and it was amazing! This course carries on for one more week, and I am looking forward to the rest of it.
Behind the learning, I am looking forward to seeing the others in my cohort. And I am hoping to be able to forge some long term friendships with many of them.
Keeping an open mind is a start to growing as a person. I am enjoying the journey and I hope it never ends.